So it’s been a couple days, I started working again yesterday which really helped because I only had a little snack during work so I wouldn’t get dizzy. My boyfriend decided to experiment and try bars [xanax] which he will never be doing again, it makes him a terrible person and he already is pushing it with his health so I was worried out of my mind the last few days, but plus side is it helped me not eat. SO I went from 163 to 159.6. I’m finally out of the 160’s! Just 4.6 more pounds till I reach my first goal. On a side note, It’s great to reward yourself with your progress, BUT DON’T MAKE THE MISTAKE TO REWARD YOURSELF WITH FOOD. It never goes the way you plan and you just end up messing everything up. Instead have an energy drink or a regular soda or a nice coffee.

On a downside we’re not supposed to smoke in the parking lot at work (or anywhere near the building) which sucks because my car is all the way at the back of the parking lot and it takes too long to get there during my 15 min break. So I can only smoke during lunch and you can just imagine what that does to my nerves. Anyway, reward your progress with activities or objects or a drink, not food.




Hello, I haven’t posted in a couple days because my boyfriend has been off of work. I managed to get a job so I’m working again which will help with my eating. I tend to eat less and lose more weight because I’m busy. I’m down to 162, which is barely less than I was but I can deal because I haven’t gained. It’s 1:30 pm and currently I’ve only had some chips.

I really want to read wintergirls to help motivate me.



Day 2 of committing myself once again, I woke up the same weight and didn’t eat til around 4 p.m. My friend wanted to get McDonald’s so we went. Could have gotten a salad but didn’t. On the bright side we were able to buy cigarettes, which I haven’t had any for 2 days so finally getting some is doing good for me. McDonald’s is most likely going to be the only thing I am eating today.

I downloaded Pokemon Go again, and I forgot how fun it is to play. I hate exercise but this game is good because you HAVE to walk around to catch Pokemon.

My intake for today has been a total fail and I am hoping it won’t show on the scale tomorrow.


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About me

♥Hello, this is my blog. I have made this to  talk about how I feel and my problems with my ED that I’ve dealt with the last past 5 years. My goal is to get back down to a comfortable weight with nobody realizing what I’m obviously doing. My lowest weight is 97 pounds, current is 162.2, and my goal is to get anywhere between 95 and 120 pounds. I am not on here to promote anything, anything I tag in my posts or pictures are strictly related to ED and if you end up here, you are in control of yourself. With that being said,